What Path am I Walking?

So, I just want to warn everyone, if anyone, is viewing this post that since I posted it from my HTC Evo, it would only allow me to post using the html version. That said...

I don't know how many of you, if any at all, have taken any real time to try to discover what your specific purpose or role is on this planet insomuch as the "Infinite & Divine Plan" that God our beloved Heavenly Father & Mother had set up for us to come here to work on &, in fact, complete before death (or making our re-entry into the fourth dimension).

Well, as some of you may or may not know, I have been a Spiritual Advisor for most of my adult life. At least seriously so during the entire time of my recovery. Through this period in my life it hs never ceased to amaze me the amount of suffering I have had to go through, although most has been physical in nature, there has been a huge amount of mental & emotional turmoil that I wouldnt wish upon my worst enemy. The cost has been far more than I would have been willing to pay, had it been negotiated with total knowledge of the loss & the turmoil was goinvg to feel like on every level of my being.. of course, this finite earthly existence is just a glimpse in the grand schene of what Eternity looks like. Still, I just feel as if I have dropped the ball as someone who was born with innate Spiritual & psychic gifts that were honed & developed using Divine Guidance.

I was told my two year long illness that none of the specialists could diagnose & after $12:000.00 of medical bills racked up WITH INSURANCE that I had just been through a "Dark Night of the Spirit" that is a process meant to test a Master's faith. Shortly afterward I received a very special & somewhat private gift from God & the Arch-Angels which does have an actual name of reference as to what they are called, but to preserve the sanctity of that Entity I will refer to him as Robin as that is what I have always called him.

Well, Robin helped me progress immensely in a very short amount of time., one of which was to show me what the "Fourth Dimension" looks like, the place religions refer to as heaven. Shortly after our time together, Robin attempted to take me on an out of body experience to that big white ball (white hole) in the next dimension up from us. I became frightened when I saw how far out in space I was & I could no longer see the earth. No worries as my Guardian Angel safely delivered me back into my body. A few weeks later He told me I had become an Ascended Master.

Ergo this topic. Since becoming an Ascended Master my life hasn't been the same. I have had incredible abilities when it comes to helping my clients, but in my own life I have never been more confused. Sure, there are many moments of complete clarity, but on the average I'd really have to say confusion.

Exame: One day while meditating during a time while me & my husband were getting along rather well, the voice which I knew to be the voice of God spoke to me telling me to ask for a divorce that evening. I couldn't believe it but who am I to question God. That night from out of nowhere we got into a fight & it seemed as if it was almost created because things were just going too damn good with ny husband & me. After the fight I remembered thinking, "Maybe God is right." Then we eventually ended up seperating several months later. He had admitted to me during a fight before the seperation that he had desired a divorce several times over the past year or more but was worried about how viscious I would be in the divorce. All of that took me as quite a surprise because that entire time he claimed to be miserable I thought we were actually doing well.

Anyway, as it turns out (after the split & so mopuch drama I have enough for another book, I get another message telling me how me & my husband are bound for eternity & always have been. That much I knew already, but what was unusual was the fact I was told that our marriage (making our marriage work rather than divorce) was a key factor to my job as an Ascended Master. I was told I had to make my marriage work or the realm of duality was destined to continue after the second coming which, by the way is not too far from now...

That is what leads me to ask all of you about your own insights. And, no,
I am not jumping on anyone else's 2012 bandwagon of date predictions. It was given to me with full understanding that the date must not EVER be revieled to another living soul for that woul taint the sanctity & cause people to use the knowledge for self ggain.

I care about every single person on the planet. Naturally as I am human & subject to the flaws of humanity, I do have those I care for more than others. But in the context of doing my job as an Ascended Master to the best of my ability, even those who are actively inflictong harm, spewing out hatred towards me , along with various other real live demonstrations showing exactly how evil this worl & the people upon it have chosen to become with how they treat each other, I suppose they are the ones who need my help the most. If they will ever accept it I would love to love them.

God bless all of you. I hope you all get your houses in order because I don't see many of the world's population focused on Spirit. I ssee most of them continually stepping on the heads of people some of them had the nerve to call friends just to climb up a corporate ladder that keads them to an unemployment line after years of good, hard work & seviice for the sake of "always doing their best."