feels as if bugs are crawling all over
itching, irritated, ripping holes into tanned skin
scratching all over, every inch, my body
hoping to kill them or alleviate nerves shocking
vile and hateful, my mouth, cursing at “the professionals”
they ask me dumb questions prolonging agony
broken teeth, dental work, cavities, really?
asking me such questions so inapplicable
demanding to skip the bull shit just dose me
get into a comfortable bed, wait for the effects
I want a hot shower to sooth cramping muscles
cramping stomach, intestines
stabbing my insides like I swallowed an ice-pick
(a bullet would be quicker, less expensive, more relief)
it’s finally over in six days, yes, I’ve found freedom
not shallow freedom our forefathers desired
free from myself, the hell I created, uncertain
maybe it created me and I flourished in it
thought I had angel’s wings
thought so many stupid things
some were real, none of them matter
they led me to “right now” where I need drugs
drugs to stop the sickness, the pain
mental obsessions, emotionally bankrupt
cliché as it sounds, as it is, it’s what is
cliché is my life founded on fake memories
things like hope, serenity, and forgiveness
memories that crumbled like poorly baked cornbread
now I’m corn-fed and I feel human again
©February 2010 – Tamara Nicholas
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Trying to Find Out Where the Pink Cloud Resides
I’ve been trying to find out where the pink cloud resides now that it vacated the space I was leasing it in the mid 90's."HEY. PINK CLOUD. Why don't you call me anymore?"
The funny things about clouds are they can turn colors so quickly. All they require is a body of water to pass over to become gray. They don't even have to be severely gray to lay down a pile of snow. Snow is also funny. If you don't have experience driving in it you can easily crash. Sometimes, because of ignorance and inexperience, it only takes "trying to maintain control of your vehicle" to cause you to spin out of control doing 360's from one side of the road into oncoming traffic. Just driving in the manner you have been taught or grown accustom to can go from you wrecking into an inanimate object to taking multiple cars along with you creating an 18 car pile up. Yep, sometimes it's better to release "control" entirely and go with auto-pilot. I will explain what I mean by "auto-pilot."
The earth is merely a huge puppeteer stage and we humans are gigantic Marionette puppets. We have long, invisible strings attached to a large, wooden control unit. Our Higher Power manipulates the wooden control which pulls our strings which makes us move in many different directions. So long as our Higher Power is the one with the control unit we will stay on a path which provides us with many learning opportunities and (sometimes) opportunities to teach. The path is the path which flows smoothly, effortlessly, and reaches many pleasant destinations. When we (the puppets) decide we are clever enough to know what is best for ourselves and/or others we begin to stretch the strings. Eventually they snap giving us complete control of our actions and the roads we travel which lead us to many destinations. These journeys, though just as scenic as before, always lead us to the same two destinations. Those two destinations are institutions and/or death. Not necessarily in that order...
No matter how much recovery time you have under your belt you have been given your own control unit. It's called a brain. The brain is the only imperfect organ in the human body. It is only imperfect because it was given the ability to think at such rapid rates. It can propel the body and spirit with its thoughts. It does this because thoughts are what form emotions. Emotions are the single most powerful vessel created by our Higher Power. The only thing more powerful (within human beings) is their Spirit. The Spirit is an extension of our Higher Power and if we allow our Spirit to maintain control of that wooden control unit we are effortlessly more happy. When our brain rationalizes with the Spirit and begins to converse it is so much louder than the voice of Spirit it easily takes over the conversation. This is the defect which creates all other character defects.
The mind is a very powerful tool we have been given. It's important to use our tools as they were intended. When we use a stick of dynamite rather than a "saws-all" to make an opening in a solid wall as we remodel our home we're going to create the need for a new wall to be built. This comes at a much higher cost than if we'd used a saws-all to create a measured, thought out opening requiring only a small amount of materials to give birth to the look we'd intended to create. None of us go out into the world saying, "I want to be a heroin and cocaine addict so I can completely silence the voice of my Spirit and damage all major organs in my body. Create huge voids in all the relationships which are important to me. Alienating any and all reason, capacity to love in an unconditional and healthy way. Then eventually die from the drugs themselves or the situations I choose to be in in order to maintain my self destructive lifestyle." No, only after long periods of sobriety which have given us experiences which are healthy because we repaired the strings and gave up the control unit to our Higher Power do we realize the error of our ways and what led us to break the ties with our Higher Power. Once that is realized (completely) should we go back to our old ways we do so with full knowledge of what we are doing. That knowledge, mixed with the complete ignorance of it, brings us to self destruction in newer and more heinous ways than we experienced before.
We thought we'd experienced hell the first time around when we hit bottoms that made us crave and strive for a new way, a release of our will, a surrender to our Higher Power. That was merely a glimpse into what hell truly is because when we "use," with the knowing that what we are doing is not right, then we get to experience hell in all its hateful glory.
My name is Tammy and I have been to hell and back more times than I care to remember. Though it's not something I care to remember I must remember everything because if I forget, for even a milisecond, where I've been and how I got there I will most certainly be sentenced to a life of immeasureable self-loathing and misery. I've lived too many of my "human years" in hell. I must give up control to my Higher Power if I want to achieve any level of true happiness. True happiness is created and saturated with unconditional love. Unconditional love for myself, my Creator, and my fellow fucked up human brothers and sisters. We are one family, one race. That race is the human race and we all share the same Creator (Parents) no matter what our religions, agnosticism, or brains tell us.
The funny things about clouds are they can turn colors so quickly. All they require is a body of water to pass over to become gray. They don't even have to be severely gray to lay down a pile of snow. Snow is also funny. If you don't have experience driving in it you can easily crash. Sometimes, because of ignorance and inexperience, it only takes "trying to maintain control of your vehicle" to cause you to spin out of control doing 360's from one side of the road into oncoming traffic. Just driving in the manner you have been taught or grown accustom to can go from you wrecking into an inanimate object to taking multiple cars along with you creating an 18 car pile up. Yep, sometimes it's better to release "control" entirely and go with auto-pilot. I will explain what I mean by "auto-pilot."
The earth is merely a huge puppeteer stage and we humans are gigantic Marionette puppets. We have long, invisible strings attached to a large, wooden control unit. Our Higher Power manipulates the wooden control which pulls our strings which makes us move in many different directions. So long as our Higher Power is the one with the control unit we will stay on a path which provides us with many learning opportunities and (sometimes) opportunities to teach. The path is the path which flows smoothly, effortlessly, and reaches many pleasant destinations. When we (the puppets) decide we are clever enough to know what is best for ourselves and/or others we begin to stretch the strings. Eventually they snap giving us complete control of our actions and the roads we travel which lead us to many destinations. These journeys, though just as scenic as before, always lead us to the same two destinations. Those two destinations are institutions and/or death. Not necessarily in that order...
No matter how much recovery time you have under your belt you have been given your own control unit. It's called a brain. The brain is the only imperfect organ in the human body. It is only imperfect because it was given the ability to think at such rapid rates. It can propel the body and spirit with its thoughts. It does this because thoughts are what form emotions. Emotions are the single most powerful vessel created by our Higher Power. The only thing more powerful (within human beings) is their Spirit. The Spirit is an extension of our Higher Power and if we allow our Spirit to maintain control of that wooden control unit we are effortlessly more happy. When our brain rationalizes with the Spirit and begins to converse it is so much louder than the voice of Spirit it easily takes over the conversation. This is the defect which creates all other character defects.
The mind is a very powerful tool we have been given. It's important to use our tools as they were intended. When we use a stick of dynamite rather than a "saws-all" to make an opening in a solid wall as we remodel our home we're going to create the need for a new wall to be built. This comes at a much higher cost than if we'd used a saws-all to create a measured, thought out opening requiring only a small amount of materials to give birth to the look we'd intended to create. None of us go out into the world saying, "I want to be a heroin and cocaine addict so I can completely silence the voice of my Spirit and damage all major organs in my body. Create huge voids in all the relationships which are important to me. Alienating any and all reason, capacity to love in an unconditional and healthy way. Then eventually die from the drugs themselves or the situations I choose to be in in order to maintain my self destructive lifestyle." No, only after long periods of sobriety which have given us experiences which are healthy because we repaired the strings and gave up the control unit to our Higher Power do we realize the error of our ways and what led us to break the ties with our Higher Power. Once that is realized (completely) should we go back to our old ways we do so with full knowledge of what we are doing. That knowledge, mixed with the complete ignorance of it, brings us to self destruction in newer and more heinous ways than we experienced before.
We thought we'd experienced hell the first time around when we hit bottoms that made us crave and strive for a new way, a release of our will, a surrender to our Higher Power. That was merely a glimpse into what hell truly is because when we "use," with the knowing that what we are doing is not right, then we get to experience hell in all its hateful glory.
My name is Tammy and I have been to hell and back more times than I care to remember. Though it's not something I care to remember I must remember everything because if I forget, for even a milisecond, where I've been and how I got there I will most certainly be sentenced to a life of immeasureable self-loathing and misery. I've lived too many of my "human years" in hell. I must give up control to my Higher Power if I want to achieve any level of true happiness. True happiness is created and saturated with unconditional love. Unconditional love for myself, my Creator, and my fellow fucked up human brothers and sisters. We are one family, one race. That race is the human race and we all share the same Creator (Parents) no matter what our religions, agnosticism, or brains tell us.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
The Face of a Flower
The link in the title will take you to the actual piece. I don't write daily as I used to. I was improving so quickly back when I wrote daily. It's as if I'm starting from the beginning again when it comes to writing poetry. Please feel free to give your thoughts about content, flow, imagery, or any old opinion that comes to mind. Feedback is always helpful.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
The Reason "The Law of Attraction" fails for most people.
The reason most people do not see their lives changing rapidly in the positive ways that they desire (yes, even people who believe and try to practice "The Law of Attraction) is because this planet we live on is filled with humans. Humans (by nature) bring negativity. Not all humans are negative all the time or even most of the time. There are some people such as Jesus, Buddha, Gandhi, and other Masters who were not like the average human being. At least, not from what was ever publicized about them. Who's to say that they didn't have their "moments." The people who write religious and, even, Spiritual texts don't always include everything or (if they do) things get edited out by people who think whatever was written should be told a different way. In other words, the people who do the editing (most often) have their version of what's true or "what the general public should know." The same goes for the makers of the movie "The Secret" and the writer of the book "Feel it Real" just to name two.
What isn't told to everyone is that some things are harder to manifest than other things because of the way it's being attempted or the intentions behind what's wanted. Since this planet is filled with negativity fed to each one of us by the media, employers, religions, family members, friends, and about anything else subject to "reality" positive results are opposed just by the energy that's so prevalent in life. This is what brings the core issue to the surface, which is buried, as to "Why doesn't it work for me very often?"
The reason it's not working, other than there's so much negative energy surrounding us every single day, is because we (as humans) are subject to that negativity. We allow negative thoughts to fester within us and occupy a lot of our conscious time. Magic happens from the super-conscious which is accessed through the subconscious which is programmed by the conscious. Are you confused yet? Let me explain it more clearly by example.
If you spend fifty percent (or more) of your waking hours submerged in negativity via stress/anxiety, fear, anger, depression, guilt, and so on you are bringing all of those emotions and thought into manifestation. Yes, it happens. Say you get fired from a job and you fester on the fact how they fired you for no just cause. You get angry at the fact that someone else who was liked by management had stepped on your head to get up the ladder of success. Maybe they made things up that were completely untrue to tell management about you to make themselves appear better than you because (in actuality) they felt threatened by you because you worked harder, were smarter, or had selfless intentions when it came to your actions. Maybe you were too honest for that person because they lived their life submerged in lies, which is just an example (it happens everyday to someone, somewhere, within some company - believe it) of how you can bring those exact results back into your life with the very next job you get. Because you spent so much time thinking all those thoughts about what just happened (even though you were not at fault and deserve no bad Karma to come into your life from those circumstances) you have just made it necessary to re-manifest in your life because of all the time you spent on it consciously. Consciousness programs our subconscious. Even things we aren't, necessarily, aware of in our day to day thought processes get programmed into our subconscious. For example, when you walk into a room and your eyes see what color the room is, the type of floor, what the furniture looks like and so on. You may never give it another conscious thought and if asked about it later, because of vitally important information needs to be recalled from your memory, you may not be able to tell the person asking you where the room was located (let alone) detailed information of its interior. If you were put under hypnosis (if you are someone who is subject to hypnosis) you would recall every detail from the tiniest to the largest because the hypnotist is accessing your subconscious mind.
Remember, I said earlier, everything is manifested through the super-conscious, which is accessed by the subconscious, which is programmed by the conscious. Let's turn this around so you know how to create better results now that you know why you create so much drama in your life that you "consciously" despise.
It takes awareness to "consciously" think of pleasant things. Even when in the present moment, or the "now," we don't give enough attention to pleasant things. Not until we experience a lot of unhappiness do we remember what used to be "the now's" happiness. We aren't always immediately grateful for the happiness we are experiencing right now. This doesn't mean that more happiness will never come to us again because we didn't spend enough energy savoring it in "the now." All it means is that when we do remember those pleasant moments we need to express gratitude and spend time consciously putting forth our best effort to, even, feel what those moments felt like. That makes the energy even more powerful.
Why does it make it more powerful? The answer is because it raises our vibration. By "our vibration" I mean our energy. Religion refers to this energy as our soul. I refer to it as Spirit. When our Spiritual energy is elevated and in sync with our physical energy (by that I mean that our physical energy is also elevated) we are much more powerful than when one of the two or both are vibrating at a low vibration. Again, the super-conscious creates. Our Spirit is in the realm of the super-conscious. Our dreams may tell us what is about to happen in our reality from time to time. That is because our dreams come to our consciousness from our subconscious, which is one of the doorways to the super-conscious, but back to the "vibration theory." When our Spirit vibrates at a high level we are very dialed into everything and everyone (made by Creator) around us. That is because we are all connected through Spirit. We are connected to everything Creator has made and can feel the vibrations of all living things when our vibration is elevated and our Chakras are open and aligned.
If our conscious (or mind) suppresses emotions or thoughts of negativity it can create physical illness. The reason for this is because it lowers the vibration of our physical body. Negativity aligns with low vibrations and frequencies. Positive energy is aligned with high vibrations and frequencies. So, when you're at your optimal Spiritual and physical vibration (or at your best) you will manifest things with little effort expelled. By this, I mean you won't have to consciously focus on it for more than the time it takes your mind to form a thought. In addition, it will definitely not be mentally and physically exhausting because the only energy expelled from your Spirit is what Spirit is intended to expel. If you are physically ill and vibrating very low physically then your Spirit is going to expel a lot more energy to create something and, thus, make your physical vibration even lower. Our vibration is a result of our energy, which is comparable to a rechargeable battery. If overused without being charged during the timeframe, which it is being used to excess the battery will go dead and then must be recharged. If it is never recharged it may as well be tossed in the trash because it won't work. It will not bring to life anything that requires a battery to operate. The same goes with our energy or "vibration." If we get so depleted that we are physically damaged due to the depletion it can, even, cause us to feel as if we're actually dying. The lower the vibration the more negative the outcome will be. The higher the vibration the more positive the outcome will be. Is that simple enough, or what?
If we want to manifest anything into our lives our body, mind and Spirit must be aligned and functioning at their best or it will take so much effort to produce anything even slightly positive. I have manifested for myself as well as others and done it with much ease without any depletion to mind, body, or Spirit. There have been times where my energy was depleted or that the negative energy surrounding the person for whom I was trying to bring results was so thick and heavy that it harmed me physically. Even when we think we are protected physical manifestations, which are not desired, can come into reality. It doesn't always have to do with the body at first, but if focused upon too much (whatever the manifested negative outcome) it will give birth to physical problems. Some of these problems within our physical bodies which have been created through energy can not be diagnosed by regular medical doctors. That is because a portion of that energy is still residing in the super-conscious and a portion has been realized consciously. Therefore, physical symptoms can exist without any known cause to modern medicine. In cases such as this, it takes another Master (Shaman/Healer/Intuitive) to fix our problem. The Master we select must be vibrating at their optimal level to bring us the best and quickest results as well as results, which will be longer lasting.
Remember how I mentioned the intent behind the manifestation? When we manifest for others it is easier than manifesting for ourselves. This is because it is an act of selflessness. It is also because the other individual is trying to manifest for themselves the same result so there are two working rather than one. Do not let that discourage you, though, because it will not serve you in the best possible way to be discouraged. That is a negative vibration. You have to "know" that what you're throwing out will come back. If this is true of negative potential it must be true for positive outcomes as well. The rules apply to everything and everyone that is living because everything that lives is alive through Creator. Creator is all of everything and if we know we are truly connected with Creator through Spirit and, therefore, through mind and body we have to know that what we spend our energy trying to accomplish will absolutely be accomplished.
What isn't told to everyone is that some things are harder to manifest than other things because of the way it's being attempted or the intentions behind what's wanted. Since this planet is filled with negativity fed to each one of us by the media, employers, religions, family members, friends, and about anything else subject to "reality" positive results are opposed just by the energy that's so prevalent in life. This is what brings the core issue to the surface, which is buried, as to "Why doesn't it work for me very often?"
The reason it's not working, other than there's so much negative energy surrounding us every single day, is because we (as humans) are subject to that negativity. We allow negative thoughts to fester within us and occupy a lot of our conscious time. Magic happens from the super-conscious which is accessed through the subconscious which is programmed by the conscious. Are you confused yet? Let me explain it more clearly by example.
If you spend fifty percent (or more) of your waking hours submerged in negativity via stress/anxiety, fear, anger, depression, guilt, and so on you are bringing all of those emotions and thought into manifestation. Yes, it happens. Say you get fired from a job and you fester on the fact how they fired you for no just cause. You get angry at the fact that someone else who was liked by management had stepped on your head to get up the ladder of success. Maybe they made things up that were completely untrue to tell management about you to make themselves appear better than you because (in actuality) they felt threatened by you because you worked harder, were smarter, or had selfless intentions when it came to your actions. Maybe you were too honest for that person because they lived their life submerged in lies, which is just an example (it happens everyday to someone, somewhere, within some company - believe it) of how you can bring those exact results back into your life with the very next job you get. Because you spent so much time thinking all those thoughts about what just happened (even though you were not at fault and deserve no bad Karma to come into your life from those circumstances) you have just made it necessary to re-manifest in your life because of all the time you spent on it consciously. Consciousness programs our subconscious. Even things we aren't, necessarily, aware of in our day to day thought processes get programmed into our subconscious. For example, when you walk into a room and your eyes see what color the room is, the type of floor, what the furniture looks like and so on. You may never give it another conscious thought and if asked about it later, because of vitally important information needs to be recalled from your memory, you may not be able to tell the person asking you where the room was located (let alone) detailed information of its interior. If you were put under hypnosis (if you are someone who is subject to hypnosis) you would recall every detail from the tiniest to the largest because the hypnotist is accessing your subconscious mind.
Remember, I said earlier, everything is manifested through the super-conscious, which is accessed by the subconscious, which is programmed by the conscious. Let's turn this around so you know how to create better results now that you know why you create so much drama in your life that you "consciously" despise.
It takes awareness to "consciously" think of pleasant things. Even when in the present moment, or the "now," we don't give enough attention to pleasant things. Not until we experience a lot of unhappiness do we remember what used to be "the now's" happiness. We aren't always immediately grateful for the happiness we are experiencing right now. This doesn't mean that more happiness will never come to us again because we didn't spend enough energy savoring it in "the now." All it means is that when we do remember those pleasant moments we need to express gratitude and spend time consciously putting forth our best effort to, even, feel what those moments felt like. That makes the energy even more powerful.
Why does it make it more powerful? The answer is because it raises our vibration. By "our vibration" I mean our energy. Religion refers to this energy as our soul. I refer to it as Spirit. When our Spiritual energy is elevated and in sync with our physical energy (by that I mean that our physical energy is also elevated) we are much more powerful than when one of the two or both are vibrating at a low vibration. Again, the super-conscious creates. Our Spirit is in the realm of the super-conscious. Our dreams may tell us what is about to happen in our reality from time to time. That is because our dreams come to our consciousness from our subconscious, which is one of the doorways to the super-conscious, but back to the "vibration theory." When our Spirit vibrates at a high level we are very dialed into everything and everyone (made by Creator) around us. That is because we are all connected through Spirit. We are connected to everything Creator has made and can feel the vibrations of all living things when our vibration is elevated and our Chakras are open and aligned.
If our conscious (or mind) suppresses emotions or thoughts of negativity it can create physical illness. The reason for this is because it lowers the vibration of our physical body. Negativity aligns with low vibrations and frequencies. Positive energy is aligned with high vibrations and frequencies. So, when you're at your optimal Spiritual and physical vibration (or at your best) you will manifest things with little effort expelled. By this, I mean you won't have to consciously focus on it for more than the time it takes your mind to form a thought. In addition, it will definitely not be mentally and physically exhausting because the only energy expelled from your Spirit is what Spirit is intended to expel. If you are physically ill and vibrating very low physically then your Spirit is going to expel a lot more energy to create something and, thus, make your physical vibration even lower. Our vibration is a result of our energy, which is comparable to a rechargeable battery. If overused without being charged during the timeframe, which it is being used to excess the battery will go dead and then must be recharged. If it is never recharged it may as well be tossed in the trash because it won't work. It will not bring to life anything that requires a battery to operate. The same goes with our energy or "vibration." If we get so depleted that we are physically damaged due to the depletion it can, even, cause us to feel as if we're actually dying. The lower the vibration the more negative the outcome will be. The higher the vibration the more positive the outcome will be. Is that simple enough, or what?
If we want to manifest anything into our lives our body, mind and Spirit must be aligned and functioning at their best or it will take so much effort to produce anything even slightly positive. I have manifested for myself as well as others and done it with much ease without any depletion to mind, body, or Spirit. There have been times where my energy was depleted or that the negative energy surrounding the person for whom I was trying to bring results was so thick and heavy that it harmed me physically. Even when we think we are protected physical manifestations, which are not desired, can come into reality. It doesn't always have to do with the body at first, but if focused upon too much (whatever the manifested negative outcome) it will give birth to physical problems. Some of these problems within our physical bodies which have been created through energy can not be diagnosed by regular medical doctors. That is because a portion of that energy is still residing in the super-conscious and a portion has been realized consciously. Therefore, physical symptoms can exist without any known cause to modern medicine. In cases such as this, it takes another Master (Shaman/Healer/Intuitive) to fix our problem. The Master we select must be vibrating at their optimal level to bring us the best and quickest results as well as results, which will be longer lasting.
Remember how I mentioned the intent behind the manifestation? When we manifest for others it is easier than manifesting for ourselves. This is because it is an act of selflessness. It is also because the other individual is trying to manifest for themselves the same result so there are two working rather than one. Do not let that discourage you, though, because it will not serve you in the best possible way to be discouraged. That is a negative vibration. You have to "know" that what you're throwing out will come back. If this is true of negative potential it must be true for positive outcomes as well. The rules apply to everything and everyone that is living because everything that lives is alive through Creator. Creator is all of everything and if we know we are truly connected with Creator through Spirit and, therefore, through mind and body we have to know that what we spend our energy trying to accomplish will absolutely be accomplished.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Dead-beat Dads
I had posted something under this title a few weeks back. Unfortunately I posted it at a time when I was very angry and my impulsive and wreckless act of posting while angry was not intended to hurt anyone. I write to vent and purge the negative feelings I'm having at that moment. I need to learn where and what's appropriate. Had I thought it through and (even) proof-read it prior to posting I would like to think I wouldn't have posted it. I know that once I read it, after someone pointed something out to me, I was disgusted with myself for posting it. I know I'm forgiven by Creator because Creator knows I have true remorse. There's a lot of things I wish I could take back moments after I do them (at times). If I had my way I would be different in many ways and I would change many things right this moment about myself and my behavior. All I can do is try to change the things that don't agree with who I want to be. Maybe I'll catch a break and succeed. Maybe I'll just die trying.
Monday, January 4, 2010
"Are You Serious?" on webs.com
The title of this post is a link to the other "Are You Serious?" which is set up as a writing group. I welcome all of you to visit that site and see what you think (even join). The more the merrier wherever "Are You Serious?" is available is always more fun.
I invited some more friends of mine...
I invited a bunch of people who range from relatives to writers to friends of mine. I hope they all join in with us who are following this blog and post a lot of comments and work of their own. The more the merrier (that's what I'm told).
Also, I encourage those of you who are already following this blog to go ahead and comment on what's been said (if you have any opinion) or create a fresh post with your own work or ideas and thoughts. The more that's here to read the more intersting it is and the more people posting the more diverse ideas and styles we get to enjoy.
Thanks for all the support. Hope to see you all on the board very soon.
Tammy
Saturday, January 2, 2010
An Opinion that doesn't Cost a Cent
How did this post slip by me? (Referring to my uncle Oscar's post about his book and his comment on health care reform.) As one wise person once said, "We already have socialized medicine in this country. It's called the Veteran's Administration." Every citizen should have the same option for their medical needs as our vets are entitled to have.
Sure, they may (or may not) have risked their lives and limbs to serve many of us citizens who the right side claim to be un-american. Good for them. Most of them chose to do so knowing the risks. I pity the ones who were forced to do so despite the risks.
I support my troops by telling our government to quit putting them in harm's way because of ego, greed, or stupidity (whichever applies).
In my opinion there were only four wars in American history which had merit to take the lives of our military. Number one-the revolution, number two-the civil war, number three-world war one, and number four-world war two.
The US is too quick to jump into battle and does it under the guise of "freedom and democracy for all" which sounds so heroic and humanitarian like. Well, it's usually bull shit to cover up the fact that we jumped into battle for either ego, greed, or stupidity. Usually greed and/or ego.
Anyway, back to health care reform. Just because I didn't fight for my country (or sign up and sit and wait for something to happen) doesn't mean my life is any less valuable than the one's who did sign up. Just because I'm not filthy rich does not make me any less valuable than those who can afford quality health care. To quote "The Declaration of Independence" or Thomas Jefferson, more appropriately, "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."
Oh Thomas, if he were alive during the Bush administration he surely would have rallied the troops for an uprising. If our forefathers were alive today to witness how greed and corruption have destroyed this once great nation, well, I like to believe they themselves would gather together in a row to piss on capitol hill.
The citizens of this country (average, everyday citizens which make up the shrinking middle class and all classes beneath) are not being served by their government or by their employers, neighbors, families, friends, churches, or anyone but themselves these days. Sure, Obama instituted the extension of unemployment benefits and managed to get it through the house and senate so he could make it law. That's the only positive thing that has happened for the suffering, common citizen of today's america.
We continue to lose our jobs while watching them end up over-seas in a poverty-stricken country where labor is cheap. We continue to be spied on by our own government and held accountable for things which they believe we have done or will do without the benefit of legal process or representation. We continue to lose the value of our largest purchase of our lives (our homes) because of the greed that perpetuated an overinflated market and preditory lending. Our health care coverage continues to be cut while costs for the diminishing benefits increase along with the cost of health care. The cost of living continues to rise while wages go down and raises are not given to deserving employees so that profit margins can rise making the rich get richer.
Am I proud to be an american? No. Am I proud to be a part of a society that places the value of money over the value of human lives? No. Unfortunately greed is very contageous and it infects every individual who has ever gone without or had too much because too much is never enough. Was this what God intended when our great Creator created this planet and humans to inhabit it? In my opinion (which is free by the way) no way, no how, not in a million years was that the original plan. Unfortunately people do a lot of killing in the name of God and make a lot of stupid decisions that affect millions of people in the name of God yet it is their own will and ego which is the driving force - definitely not God.
I was going to post as a comment on your thread uncle Oscar, but I thought it deserved to be viewed up front and personal and "in your face" so to speak. Not in YOUR face per se, but figuratively speaking. I guess that's just how I roll. I've been a loud mouth all my life. At least now I have more than just curse words flying out of my pie hole and maybe someone somewhere will stop and think about what I'm screaming about all the time. If only one person stops feeding the beast of greed and feeds a starving human being instead then my screaming until I get hoarse was all worth it.
Sure, they may (or may not) have risked their lives and limbs to serve many of us citizens who the right side claim to be un-american. Good for them. Most of them chose to do so knowing the risks. I pity the ones who were forced to do so despite the risks.
I support my troops by telling our government to quit putting them in harm's way because of ego, greed, or stupidity (whichever applies).
In my opinion there were only four wars in American history which had merit to take the lives of our military. Number one-the revolution, number two-the civil war, number three-world war one, and number four-world war two.
The US is too quick to jump into battle and does it under the guise of "freedom and democracy for all" which sounds so heroic and humanitarian like. Well, it's usually bull shit to cover up the fact that we jumped into battle for either ego, greed, or stupidity. Usually greed and/or ego.
Anyway, back to health care reform. Just because I didn't fight for my country (or sign up and sit and wait for something to happen) doesn't mean my life is any less valuable than the one's who did sign up. Just because I'm not filthy rich does not make me any less valuable than those who can afford quality health care. To quote "The Declaration of Independence" or Thomas Jefferson, more appropriately, "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."
Oh Thomas, if he were alive during the Bush administration he surely would have rallied the troops for an uprising. If our forefathers were alive today to witness how greed and corruption have destroyed this once great nation, well, I like to believe they themselves would gather together in a row to piss on capitol hill.
The citizens of this country (average, everyday citizens which make up the shrinking middle class and all classes beneath) are not being served by their government or by their employers, neighbors, families, friends, churches, or anyone but themselves these days. Sure, Obama instituted the extension of unemployment benefits and managed to get it through the house and senate so he could make it law. That's the only positive thing that has happened for the suffering, common citizen of today's america.
We continue to lose our jobs while watching them end up over-seas in a poverty-stricken country where labor is cheap. We continue to be spied on by our own government and held accountable for things which they believe we have done or will do without the benefit of legal process or representation. We continue to lose the value of our largest purchase of our lives (our homes) because of the greed that perpetuated an overinflated market and preditory lending. Our health care coverage continues to be cut while costs for the diminishing benefits increase along with the cost of health care. The cost of living continues to rise while wages go down and raises are not given to deserving employees so that profit margins can rise making the rich get richer.
Am I proud to be an american? No. Am I proud to be a part of a society that places the value of money over the value of human lives? No. Unfortunately greed is very contageous and it infects every individual who has ever gone without or had too much because too much is never enough. Was this what God intended when our great Creator created this planet and humans to inhabit it? In my opinion (which is free by the way) no way, no how, not in a million years was that the original plan. Unfortunately people do a lot of killing in the name of God and make a lot of stupid decisions that affect millions of people in the name of God yet it is their own will and ego which is the driving force - definitely not God.
I was going to post as a comment on your thread uncle Oscar, but I thought it deserved to be viewed up front and personal and "in your face" so to speak. Not in YOUR face per se, but figuratively speaking. I guess that's just how I roll. I've been a loud mouth all my life. At least now I have more than just curse words flying out of my pie hole and maybe someone somewhere will stop and think about what I'm screaming about all the time. If only one person stops feeding the beast of greed and feeds a starving human being instead then my screaming until I get hoarse was all worth it.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
What's in Your Wallet?
It doesn't take a genius to realize that greed is not only controlling all aspects of the world today, but it is (also) destroying humanity along with Mother Earth.
Just take a look around you on any given day at any given moment. The, once thriving, middle class in this country has diminished to almost nothing due to the greed of various corporations outsourcing the middle-class jobs to other, cheap labor countries. Everyone is aware of this fact and if they aren't it's because they're either mentally challenged or not paying attention. Hell, it is such an employer's market these days that employers can get away with not giving out raises for years at a time, not giving Christmas bonuses (as they once did in the recent past), not paying "holiday pay" or even offering paid time off/paid vacation let alone paid sick days. Oh, and let's not exclude the employers who are hiring the unemployed masses to do an unpaid, 90 day internship. That's right, there are employers out there with the audacity to expect someone to give up their unemployment benefits by taking a job which will not pay them for an entire 90 days. This time allows the employer to see what kind of employee the intern would be should they decide to hire the poor schmuck after the 90 day internship is completed.
The executives and owners of these companies and corporations still make millions of dollars per year for their un-deserved salaries while the people who are the backbones of each company get their benefits, wages, and (even) jobs cut completely out of the picture. There is nothing fair about what is taking place in this country (predominantly) and many other countries around the globe. It's all designed to keep the wealthiest one percent the wealthiest one percent as well as allowing them to control our government by way of campaign contributions and payoffs. Both of which are entirely legal yet, as inappropriate as it is for this to be legal, it continues to go on election after election and year after year.
When will the American people (the decent, hard working individuals who drive the economy and make the wealthiest one percent all their money) - yes - when will all of us "good Americans" wake up and realize that the greedy, money hoarding, power hungry bastards controlling this country and driving what used to be a country made up of multiple financial classes into a four class system. The four classes being the very rich, the rich, the poor, and the very poor. Those are the four classes which are quickly taking up the old class system of this country. This has all come to pass within my short life of 41 years.
I remember, as a child, seeing a multitude of classes (the old class system) in this country. In my early childhood we were a middle class family. As I matured so did our family's financial status. By the time I was an adolescent we were considered upper-middle class. By the time I was a teenager we were considered upper-upper-middle class (just a step down from rich). There were many other classes as well. There were the poor (people who worked for minimum wage or slightly above). There were the very poor (people who relied upon welfare or social security as their only source of income). There were the three tiers of middle class which my family went through plus the additional tier of lower-middle class which was a step down from middle class and a step up from poor. Then there was the wide variety of wealthy classes. They were divided up as follows: the slightly-rich, the moderately-rich, the rich, the very-rich, the very-very-rich, and (finally) the wealthiest of the wealthy or the "elite."
The children who are being born at this time or even as long as ten years ago do not have any idea of the class system which I just mentioned. The broad spectrum of financial classes we used to enjoy as citizens of this once great country. I say, "once great," because there is little to be proud of concerning our country, its economy, the programs it offers its citizens to pursue the old American dream, and so on. I say, "old American dream," because what used to be the American dream has dissipated into the unobtainable for most of us. The old American dream was everyone becoming homeowners at least once within their lifetime, everyone owning at least two, new (or nearly new) automobiles, everyone being able to take a family vacation at least once a year, and (finally) everyone being able to get married and start a family of two or more children. I neglected the biggest part of that old American dream which is every individual could become as wealthy as they desired if they (merely) worked hard and relentlessly pursued their vision of their dream. It was not only a "dream" not too long ago it was the very essence of this country and it was (for many people) reality.
I am so sad and disgusted to say that there is no such thing as that beautiful American dream becoming reality for everyone at this point in time. No, the only people that dream turning to reality applies to are already living the dream. The rest of the good people of this once, great nation are stuck in the cycle of being stuck. Stuck is working a job that pays just enough to pay for housing, utilities, gas to get you back and forth to work every day, insurance on a car that may be new or very old, the bare minimum of food that will last from one paycheck to the next (not even good food that you really enjoy eating or your kids bug you to buy--just stuff that will fill your tummy and keep you alive to stay stuck), and--if you're fortunate--a little left over to pay for grooming. Most of us aren't even allowed the luxury of good grooming these days. Grooming not only includes hair cuts and hygienic products. It, also, includes clothing, shoes, purses (for women), dental visits to keep your mouth healthy and teeth clean, and various other things that we used to take for granted when times were so good. Back when anyone who pursued the dream could make it a reality.
Well, my fellow Americans, I could go on and on about how fucked up we as a society have become. How fucked up our government has become (even though our president, I believe, has integrity and vision to make good, positive changes for every citizen of this country). How incredibly stupid the average American citizen has become. How the media spews negative rhetoric controlled by the big corporations and companies that have, by the greed of their owners and/or shareholders/executives, destroyed the old American dream and replaced it with "stuck." Along with many other equally important pieces to this complex, yet not so complicated, problem we call staying stuck with hopes of surviving long enough that stuck eventually turns into motion.
I will guarantee that stuck becomes motion. What I can not guarantee is that the motion we begin to move or the direction we begin heading towards will be something better. In fact, it is more likely (considering who's running the show we call "the world") that the direction we move towards will be like falling backwards down a mountain we've all been climbing for a very long time. A mountain so steep and tall that we've exhausted all our resources and strength yet (somehow) we continue to climb. Only until the last bit of sweat drips down the back of our necks and, due to that drop of sweat weighing enough to throw our balance back in its direction, our entire bodies fall backwards. We continue to fall back down the mountain, but not sliding down on our backs. Rather we are rolling backwards from head to toes to head to toes breaking each and every bone while puncturing each and every organ of which our bodies are made. Finally, half dead, we reach the bottom. Yes, we did hit every tree on our way down still that's not quite enough suffering for the wealthy onlookers to have witnessed. You see, as we were falling they dug a hole (a bottomless pit) for us to land in when reaching the bottom. They did this so they could hear our voices echo loudly with pain and fear as we would continue to fall for eternity or until they have finished destroying this planet--whichever comes first.
And that's the way the human ball bounces (as it were)...
Just take a look around you on any given day at any given moment. The, once thriving, middle class in this country has diminished to almost nothing due to the greed of various corporations outsourcing the middle-class jobs to other, cheap labor countries. Everyone is aware of this fact and if they aren't it's because they're either mentally challenged or not paying attention. Hell, it is such an employer's market these days that employers can get away with not giving out raises for years at a time, not giving Christmas bonuses (as they once did in the recent past), not paying "holiday pay" or even offering paid time off/paid vacation let alone paid sick days. Oh, and let's not exclude the employers who are hiring the unemployed masses to do an unpaid, 90 day internship. That's right, there are employers out there with the audacity to expect someone to give up their unemployment benefits by taking a job which will not pay them for an entire 90 days. This time allows the employer to see what kind of employee the intern would be should they decide to hire the poor schmuck after the 90 day internship is completed.
The executives and owners of these companies and corporations still make millions of dollars per year for their un-deserved salaries while the people who are the backbones of each company get their benefits, wages, and (even) jobs cut completely out of the picture. There is nothing fair about what is taking place in this country (predominantly) and many other countries around the globe. It's all designed to keep the wealthiest one percent the wealthiest one percent as well as allowing them to control our government by way of campaign contributions and payoffs. Both of which are entirely legal yet, as inappropriate as it is for this to be legal, it continues to go on election after election and year after year.
When will the American people (the decent, hard working individuals who drive the economy and make the wealthiest one percent all their money) - yes - when will all of us "good Americans" wake up and realize that the greedy, money hoarding, power hungry bastards controlling this country and driving what used to be a country made up of multiple financial classes into a four class system. The four classes being the very rich, the rich, the poor, and the very poor. Those are the four classes which are quickly taking up the old class system of this country. This has all come to pass within my short life of 41 years.
I remember, as a child, seeing a multitude of classes (the old class system) in this country. In my early childhood we were a middle class family. As I matured so did our family's financial status. By the time I was an adolescent we were considered upper-middle class. By the time I was a teenager we were considered upper-upper-middle class (just a step down from rich). There were many other classes as well. There were the poor (people who worked for minimum wage or slightly above). There were the very poor (people who relied upon welfare or social security as their only source of income). There were the three tiers of middle class which my family went through plus the additional tier of lower-middle class which was a step down from middle class and a step up from poor. Then there was the wide variety of wealthy classes. They were divided up as follows: the slightly-rich, the moderately-rich, the rich, the very-rich, the very-very-rich, and (finally) the wealthiest of the wealthy or the "elite."
The children who are being born at this time or even as long as ten years ago do not have any idea of the class system which I just mentioned. The broad spectrum of financial classes we used to enjoy as citizens of this once great country. I say, "once great," because there is little to be proud of concerning our country, its economy, the programs it offers its citizens to pursue the old American dream, and so on. I say, "old American dream," because what used to be the American dream has dissipated into the unobtainable for most of us. The old American dream was everyone becoming homeowners at least once within their lifetime, everyone owning at least two, new (or nearly new) automobiles, everyone being able to take a family vacation at least once a year, and (finally) everyone being able to get married and start a family of two or more children. I neglected the biggest part of that old American dream which is every individual could become as wealthy as they desired if they (merely) worked hard and relentlessly pursued their vision of their dream. It was not only a "dream" not too long ago it was the very essence of this country and it was (for many people) reality.
I am so sad and disgusted to say that there is no such thing as that beautiful American dream becoming reality for everyone at this point in time. No, the only people that dream turning to reality applies to are already living the dream. The rest of the good people of this once, great nation are stuck in the cycle of being stuck. Stuck is working a job that pays just enough to pay for housing, utilities, gas to get you back and forth to work every day, insurance on a car that may be new or very old, the bare minimum of food that will last from one paycheck to the next (not even good food that you really enjoy eating or your kids bug you to buy--just stuff that will fill your tummy and keep you alive to stay stuck), and--if you're fortunate--a little left over to pay for grooming. Most of us aren't even allowed the luxury of good grooming these days. Grooming not only includes hair cuts and hygienic products. It, also, includes clothing, shoes, purses (for women), dental visits to keep your mouth healthy and teeth clean, and various other things that we used to take for granted when times were so good. Back when anyone who pursued the dream could make it a reality.
Well, my fellow Americans, I could go on and on about how fucked up we as a society have become. How fucked up our government has become (even though our president, I believe, has integrity and vision to make good, positive changes for every citizen of this country). How incredibly stupid the average American citizen has become. How the media spews negative rhetoric controlled by the big corporations and companies that have, by the greed of their owners and/or shareholders/executives, destroyed the old American dream and replaced it with "stuck." Along with many other equally important pieces to this complex, yet not so complicated, problem we call staying stuck with hopes of surviving long enough that stuck eventually turns into motion.
I will guarantee that stuck becomes motion. What I can not guarantee is that the motion we begin to move or the direction we begin heading towards will be something better. In fact, it is more likely (considering who's running the show we call "the world") that the direction we move towards will be like falling backwards down a mountain we've all been climbing for a very long time. A mountain so steep and tall that we've exhausted all our resources and strength yet (somehow) we continue to climb. Only until the last bit of sweat drips down the back of our necks and, due to that drop of sweat weighing enough to throw our balance back in its direction, our entire bodies fall backwards. We continue to fall back down the mountain, but not sliding down on our backs. Rather we are rolling backwards from head to toes to head to toes breaking each and every bone while puncturing each and every organ of which our bodies are made. Finally, half dead, we reach the bottom. Yes, we did hit every tree on our way down still that's not quite enough suffering for the wealthy onlookers to have witnessed. You see, as we were falling they dug a hole (a bottomless pit) for us to land in when reaching the bottom. They did this so they could hear our voices echo loudly with pain and fear as we would continue to fall for eternity or until they have finished destroying this planet--whichever comes first.
And that's the way the human ball bounces (as it were)...
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Health Care/Western Novel
I was going to take the liberty of posting a comment regarding the medical situation in general, but since I'm on the govt-run medicare program I won't, except to say that medicare will be broke by 2017 under the present financial setup, and who knows what's going to happen if they pass the new bill.
That said, for the readers, I've published a book through iuniverse entitled, The Stranger from the Valley, a novel of the western genre, which is available at iuniverse.com, amazon.com, bn.com, and others, and the e-book is available at iuniverse.com for only $6.00. Chappie Wesford is sent to Altaveel to give awards to two citizens sometime after the Civil War, but the Henberry family thinks he is there to take over their business, and the fun begins. Altaveel is a fictional town located in the Uintah foothills.
I've had many compliments on the book from people who have said they read it and enjoyed it, and I'm sure that you will too. I have posted excerpts from this book and others on my blog at the above link.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
That said, for the readers, I've published a book through iuniverse entitled, The Stranger from the Valley, a novel of the western genre, which is available at iuniverse.com, amazon.com, bn.com, and others, and the e-book is available at iuniverse.com for only $6.00. Chappie Wesford is sent to Altaveel to give awards to two citizens sometime after the Civil War, but the Henberry family thinks he is there to take over their business, and the fun begins. Altaveel is a fictional town located in the Uintah foothills.
I've had many compliments on the book from people who have said they read it and enjoyed it, and I'm sure that you will too. I have posted excerpts from this book and others on my blog at the above link.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
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